This is probably my favorite Lana del Rey song and I once listened to it for about ten hours on repeat on a flight back from China. There’s something in me that bristles at the idea of finding a Lana del Rey song meaningful, but there are two lines I love:
No-one’s gonna take my soul away
Living like Jim Morrison.
While I don’t exactly advocate living like Jim Morrison – 27 is two years away and I have a fuckton more than two years left in me – I like the essence of freedom and individuality it conveys. As for the first line, I wasn’t even aware until I’d heard it that it’s essentially the guiding force in how I live my life. When I first moved to LA to be an actress I thought I might be the type of person who took any role, no matter how shitty, and I’d be happy to “sell out” if I ever had the opportunity. Over the last four years I’ve realized I can’t be that type of person, even if I want to. I can’t spend my time doing things I don’t love. My life can’t be about putting average work into the world. I can’t advocate for things I don’t believe in. No-one’s going to take my soul away.
I took myself on a date to see Dallas Buyers’ Club at CityWalk yesterday – CityWalk is a giant, gaudy shopping center connected to Universal Studios, similar to Downtown Disney.
Vintage-style hat: bought in Hong Kong
70s button-down: Jet Rag vintage shop in LA
Wide-leg pants: custom-made in Beijing
Vintage sunglasses: Wild Man vintage shop in Lawrence, KS
Red vegan bag: Matt and Nat
Dallas Buyers’ Club was fantastic – I’d definitely recommend it. I thought it might be one of those Oscar movies that’s bleak and depressing but the performances are good, but it really wasn’t. It definitely was sad, and the performances were fantastic, but it wasn’t bleak. Some parts were funny, some parts were inspiring – it isn’t the story of a man dying of AIDs, it’s the story of a man who refuses to die quietly and accept the discrimination and the backwards FDA regulations systems of the late 80s. It’s an important and moving story and I’d definitely recommend it.